Happy New Year and all the best for 2020 to my readers!
This may be a meandering post of various disparate threads but all have led me to having thoughts on one theme...the need for change. I wasn't going to post as I have been a grumpy fellow over the past week and I felt somewhat uncomfortable both at work and home. But
BW's latest missive prompted me to do this and her recommendation of a book which gave me a light bulb moment.
Yesterday at work coalesced my thoughts as I drove through the fog to and from work and out on visits over the hills. It occurred to me that the dense fog and isolation of the roads was quite eerie and before the adoption of motor vehicles, everyone would either walk or use animals for transport. At walking pace either on foot or horse, life was slower, there was more time to think and a greater connection with the real and immediate world and more importantly, to other people and feeling part of something. The winter fogs, cold and isolation plus time to think possibly accounts for many myths, stories and beliefs, retold over every generation. Life was hard and to survive people had to work hard and earn their crust within a regular and familiar routine. In rural areas this meant agriculture, living with and within the seasons and again that close connection to the earth and the natural world. I drove a total of 75 miles yesterday in my self contained insulated box but going to the next village or the largest town ten miles away back in the day was a major undertaking.
The above photo shows Fluffy (Elvis) who has moved in with us over the past week. He is very thin and ill kempt despite our efforts to look after him. We now realise he has an abscess in his mouth or there is a problem with his teeth as he struggles to eat. He is also settling on us, either on me or Sue's lap which is new behaviour to us. He decided to settle on one of my model shelves yesterday evening which caused Sue to panic as he knocked off or broke models. Sue was surprised by my response which was to slowly and quietly extricate the models and leave Fluffy there. As I pointed out, they can be repaired and aren't as important to me as the welfare of the cats is and he was settled, happy and content on the shelf.
Advertising on mainstream and social media, lately aimed to persuade us to Buy! Buy! Buy! for xmas happiness, now for holidays, weight loss, health, insurance and again new year sales. I have been listening to music on line and podcasts so as to avoid the relentless advertising of false promises, rubbish and unnecessary encumbrances of modern life.
Another strand...I travelled to a ward round two days ago for someone who has spent the past two weeks in hospital, a round trip of 75 miles and demands a full half day away from the other demands made of my time. It requires a half day because whatever time has been arranged for the review belongs to Narnia time. It has no connection to real life time and so it proved in this case. We finally got in an hour later than arranged and it proved to be a complete waste of time. Medical staff who don't listen and have no understanding of the lives of ordinary people but want to meet targets. I shan't add anything else of this account because of confidentiality but it ties in with the other strands of this narrative. We had planned to help this person to the Salvation Army xmas meal as they are completely isolated apart from visits from me and another colleague.
Modern life...the frenetic pace to pursue wealth, health and happiness whilst living a life which really doesn't contribute to all of these needs / desires. Time is precious and people are precious so combine the two and double the joy. This was brought home to us returning to work on Monday to discover a colleague whose husband was killed in a car crash on xmas day. BW suggested a book about life without technology and this was the light bulb moment. I have avoided twitter for a few days now as I am reducing my exposure to it, breaking my addiction to it and I plan to quit using it altogether. There are lovely people on there with some funny and interesting comments but...it is outweighed by the overwhelming anger, rage, hatred and stupidity of comments plus the relentless advertising. When you ignore the object being sold and ask what is actually being sold, it is dreams of wealth, health and happiness. Time is precious but technology or rather, the use of it speeds time up and sucks us into this frenetic chasing of ones own tail. What is frightening is that this exposure to this bullshit happens at a younger age than ever before and when all is considered, is it any wonder that the prevalence of mental illness is greater than ever. Losing time, losing connections to others and the natural world, failing to achieve those pipe dreams sold to us on a near continual basis, struggling to make sense of this world, speeding past anything truly important in life and something has got to give.
I deliberately took time to notice over the xmas period in the shops those lone elderly folk who were shopping, generally with a single trolley, for their xmas meals. They are not on the fast paced exciting lane of wealth, health and happiness sold to the rest of us. They are left behind, surplus to requirements and not important to advertisers unless they have money and it is funeral plans being sold. It's time to rethink on a personal level how to redefine my life, what I want from it and I suspect that if one dug down into the referendum and recent elections, this sense of being disconnected from society, from others and being marginalised is at the heart of it. I am going to stop there as this could run and run. I am keeping fb as I belong to a couple of modelling groups and I have joined a group build which will run for the next two weeks. Progress thus far is shown below.

I am also slowly reading my way through
'Most Secret War' by R.V. Jones as someone on twit ter recommended it and it is a fascinating read. I have started buying second hand real books rather than kindle as I do like the feel of a real book and buying second hand is recycling which I do believe we should do more of.
Again, I wish you all the best for 2020 with health and happiness in abundance.
TTFN.